Sometimes, the pain is just too much. I’m not talking about cut your finger pain; I’m talking about raw emotional and mental pain that is so incapacitating that it wants to take you off this planet. I’m talking about something that is so big and so dark, it covers you like a cloak that you can’t even struggle to be released from. It hits hard and unexpectedly and sometimes it lasts for days. It smothers all senses of hope, all feelings of self-love, steals passion and creativity and all logical thought. It’s sneaky and it works with each and every insecurity and fear that is unhealed. In those moments, every tool you have gets thrown out the window and fighting just makes its hold even stronger. And so, you go for the ride; that familiar spiral downward into the dark night of your soul. The tears flow, the confusion reigns as to how you have ended up back in this same spot AGAIN even after all the personal work you’ve done. You have absolutely no clue of what to do next except hang on for the ride and hope you’ll wake up tomorrow and you’ll see at least a pin prick of light trying to flood back into your reality again so you can at least function and so that no one has to see how badly you feel inside as you put on a happy face to the outside world.
How many of you have experienced this kind of pain? You may be fortunate enough to have your Shadow manifest in other ways in your life or have not had this kind of experience but many of us, including myself, have to at least some degree. I know this energy well and I do understand why people commit suicide for lack of a better solution. For anyone who is suffering from depression, trauma, PTSD, any form of unworthiness, grief, shame, betrayal, powerlessness, anger, fear and a multitude of other unresolved wounds, this is a common reality. Physical pain can also cause all of the above to be true but right now, I’m talking about emotional pain, the kind that cripples us and steals all hope that things will ever change and get better.
It was this reoccurrence in my life that prompted me to seek some help many years ago. Many go to the doctor and get meds which can help rebalance brain chemistry, some seek counselling and others like me go the route of deep, inner healing work through holistic means such as energy healing. Some do all of the above. I’ve never regretted my choice since it has taken me on a journey of self-discovery and through the many layers of conditioning, belief systems, defence systems, sub-personalities and emotional wounds that I had no idea were even there. I have learned that all pain begins in the emotional body and therefore it needs to be cleared from there so it can have a ripple-down effect on the physical and mental body as well.
Over the years of doing this work and teaching others the tools of healing, we have seen many people struggle. From a mental perspective, everyone wants the same thing- to be happy in life, to have all our basic needs met, maybe have some money in the bank, maybe a relationship and kids, to be passionate and creative about our careers, good health and most of all have balance in our lives to do all those wonderful things we want to do. The truth is, so many people don’t have all or any of those things and they’re unaware of how to accomplish their goals. When they get down to doing the healing work, many realize what unconscious parts of themselves are preventing this happiness from occurring and when the pieces start to click into place, the Universe starts to open up and brand new ways of being that they never thought possible start to occur on a daily basis. I know that my whole life has changed and if you’d have told me 18 years ago that I’d be teaching energy healing and counselling others on how to love themselves more, I wouldn’t have believed you. This work has taken me from a state of suicidal depression into being able to take ownership of my life, create all the “happiness” items here and into a deeper state of love, joy and connection to myself than I ever imagined.
We often have people come to us trying to understand exactly what it is we do. The “we” I refer to is me, my husband, all our students and many others in the field of energy healing. We recently watched a great movie called “Heal” which is now available on Netflix. If you’re unsure of what clearing your “field” is all about, the power that every thought you think has on your whole beingness, this movie will give you a pretty good idea of the kind of stuff we get into. It demonstrates several healing techniques but those are only a few ways to get to the core of our wounds. We teach many others including Inner Child Rescue, Awareness Release Technique, Energetic Dialogue, and various types of hands on healing. The more tools you have and the more you explore, the better chance you have of receiving genuine healing that has the potential to change everything for you. Going this deep also connects you to your own intuition, your own guidance system and to the many gifts we all hold as a healer.
This work is life changing for many. We have found that healing happens in many layersthat have to be peeled away a little at a time until you get to the core and this can happen instantly in some and for others, it takes time. Many people are ready to move forward with their lives and many aren’t. Mentally they are, but emotionally, our wounds can become comfortable and familiar and even though it’s not logical, we will hang onto them. People will only heal when they’re ready to do so and this is something that can’t be pushed. As healers, we need to respect what each person needs, to push them a bit when we see them struggle and to ultimately hold the vision of their light for them until they’re ready to see it themselves. When you’re in the darkest place you’ve ever been, it can be helpful to understand that nothing stays the same, ever. We do have choices to heal and we sometimes have to tell our logic to reach as far as it can into our emotional abyss until we hear this.
For those of you sensitive to energies, those of 2019 so far have been very demanding. We’re being asked now to be very authentic to ourselves and to acknowledge our deepest, darkest secrets, insecurities and fears. We can no longer hide from even ourselves and all things still unhealed are coming up loud and clear. We can’t run anymore and so now we have to stand and deal with them because every facet of our lives is being influenced by these issues. There’s a saying that if you don’t deal with your stuff, it will ultimately deal with you.
I’ve always said that this work has to be done as an individual and that’s true since it’s personal. However, we don’t have to do it alone. Our healing school is full of beautiful, loving souls who have and continue to do their own personal work and share their healing abilities and experiences with others. We have many events that are coming up in February, March and April including workshops, our level 1 healing intensive class, free monthly sharing circles and an upcoming healing day that will offer you the opportunity to find out about this kind of inner work. The most important aspect in my opinion is that this is about community, and not feeling alone with your pain anymore. This is allowing yourself to take the first steps in simply acknowledging that you have pain and then perhaps finding something that works for you to help you feel at least a little better….one step at a time. Hope is the key here and if we all have hope, we can struggle through today knowing that tomorrow will come perhaps a bit brighter than today was and maybe tomorrow is the day you finally get to experience your own beauty and magnificence once and for all.
Much Love and Blessings,
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